... come on m8, just get over it.
you're 14, you can't honestly think one girl is the end of the world.
the sooner you get over it, the sooner you can move on and stop trying to get sympathy from people you don't know. honestly, if anyone does give you simpathy on here, I'd consider them quite creepy. especially seeing as you just told everyone your age, you really shouldn't tell people your personal info without knowing them. For all you know, Siku could be a pedophile.