I have thoughts on suicide.

I agree that it is some sort of "escape" from life ... but ... eh, let me tell you my story. I won't talk about my age since its a bit depressing, a young person ruining theyre life before even tasting it.
Well my parents have went in the opposite direction when I was a child, the only thing why they talk to eachother is me, the "chain" that unites them.
My parents are normal, no addictions no over-uses.
My dad is treating me like shit, sometimes hits me, but only sometimes. He has a gf, they're together for 2 years now, and she share's hattred to me just as my father. My only hope, my uncle. Diesnt give a single Fuck since he got a good job and new car. My mother is the only person that can help, oh and she has a bf, he is cool. I know suicide is like a flood, destroys everyone/everything and leaves people that (maybe) cared with nothing. My gf does know about my plans and does what she can, I really do love her. I'm really afraid of death, as I come closer to suicide I feel there is something left to do, something that needs to be done before leaving. That is the fuel that makes me continue and yet, It won't let long. School, well I'm neutral, no one hates me ... And many people do actually like me. Grades are harder topic though, I'm really lazy, I'm smart ... but I lost the power to study, not wasting my time tho, I'm reading books daily, please I need help, I use the internet since there Is noone to talk with.