You can hold out Jisse, you're an awesome dude from what I gather on your posts, and we need more people like you. Depression is a big issue, I recently lost one of my closest friends due to it. Still scars me. They were the best person I knew, but they had problems, and slit their own throat. What always takes my mind of depressing things isnt kittens or that stuff (although they are super cuddly) but listening to a shit-your-pants scary story. Always makes me paranoid so bad that I forget everything else xD

But all things aside, life is a great thing, and if it makes you feel better, a lot of people in this community love and cherish you. Don't leave us please c:

I'm not in ORMO, and I'm new to replay making, but this doesn't make me respect you any less. In fact, I respect you much more. To spend so much time mastering parkour, spar, and replay making doesn't make me just respect you as a player, it makes me respect you as a person. This may be just a game, but its not to some people. People like you and me. The ones who have a chunk of there life dedicated to toribash. Stick with Toribash. Improve your skills. Focus on THIS game until the day comes where you feel that YOU mean something. I sincerely wish you luck. Suicide is always a touchy topic, yet it isn't for me. I regulary think about suicide and could be qualified as ''depressed," but I've never come close to touching anything life-threatening during those times. I know, that if I were to bring a knife to my throat, I WOULD matter. Think long and hard about that shit. How would your fucking parents, who spent years, and years, taking care of you, feel if you just went out. How would your friends feel? How would YOU feel if you lost a friend you had spent years with. The friend you visited whenever you could. How would you feel, if you lost the people who spent years upon years taking care of YOU so YOU would succeed.

I couldn't live with it. Actually, I could. Do you know why? I would know suicide wouldn't be what they wanted.

I don't know what the biggest reason for your depression is, but I want you to fight through it. Life is a beautiful thing, but even it has its flaws. We all do. We learn to live with them.

Holy shit I'm mega ranting.

Anyways, Jisse, don't do it. If you ever come so close, that you're about to do it, I want you to come to me. I don't care if you don't think people can't help you. I'll certainly fucking try.


EDIT: I saw he got help. My rant was bloody useless

Gawddamnit