It fucks with my head I never got a clan league item. Sometimes I just wake up at night, 3am, cold sweat, and I actually fucking cry, and sit alone in my room sobbing. I'm not joking my neighbour just came by this morning and asked why I sob so loudly I honestly can't take this shit anymore.
I been in this game since I was like a kid, I grew with this game, I have felt heartbreak when I declared my love to hampa via private message and he never responded....to this day I still don't know if he even opened it. Shit like this just fucks with me, like idk I've put a lot into toribash I know if I have kids one of these days I'm naming them Uke and Nage, like I've literally dreamt I was tori running on parkour4.tbm and citystreetsparkour.tbm. just these things are good examples of my passion.
I think it there was ever a way to get the item I'd do it. I'd swallow my pride and admit although I left this game for years at a time, I could've been something more, maybe even made it into stock, or been something more, like a legend or gm. At the end of the day I'm just some little loser on tb forum and I should just go disappear again for 3 years because this toribash shit just don't matter to me without my CL19 arm.
I'd do everything all over again to make it right.
