I have alot of explaining to do, and i just wish you guys would realize that i have a life when i say all of this.


I have had a really bad week. and ill start from the beginning.

This weekend, i had the state swim meet and it went really well, but my girlfriend and i, who have been going out for a year and a half, we are like perfect together, seriously. everything is great, and we got in a series of fights that we never resolved and i broke down and my emotions are currently just shreaded from it all. its really stressful and i have been crying like almost every night, but we are fine now.

The swim team i am on has been going through alot of changes because a friend of mine's dad almost committed suicide and we have all had to go to meetings with my coach to fix things between all the people in the groups relationships, because we are currently not very nice to eachother because of the competitiveness and its out of hand at times.

And school has been so stressful lately, i have a C in Chemistry, which doesnt seem like shit really, but i just need a B in there, and i just feel so bogged down with everything that i am just so on the verge of having a breakdown.

And with UNCE, i really want this clan to do so well, and im glad the democracy system is working, as i am already suspended because im a bitch. but i want to stay with you guys, and fix anything i have inflicted. i truly am sorry. i got on and i didnt mean to take anything out on anyone. and i ended up doing so. and it was not right of me. and im so sorry. i really am. none of you deserved it.

I am honestly fine now, and i want to be with UNCE, but i seriously would understand if you guys dont want me anymore, because i am a shithead, but im really going to try my hardest. Ashaltaf, im sorry. i really am.

So please, make your decisions in here, Do you honestly want me to stay, or not.

When you say NO, realize what you are saying. you hate me, you wish i wasnt in this clan and you honestly think there is no turning back.
But if you wish for me to stay, ill serve out the rest of my suspension and then try to just be a help when i can, and i wont interfere with anything, and since my help really isnt much help and it caused drama, ill just sit back and not do anything.