Guys... I'm only telling you this because... I need help, you guys are my family, friends And much more, and I need y'all more than anything. As of today, while playing with my gf beatnotbox, my ex has been stalking me on social media, she has tried fucking with my mind by putting bad thougts through my head, at one point manipulated me into making myself thinking of suicide. After being depressed for a bit, I got a text from one of friends saying that he wanted to end his life, I thought he was just saying that cause of something bad that happened, but I still tried talking to him about it cause I'm a good friend. I got a bad feeling so I checked where he was sending his from cause he was acting strange so I checked where he was sending these texts. Sure enough HE IS AT THE FUCKING BRIDGE. I put all my problems aside, I say on toribash I had to leave and explained why, I ran over 2 miles to him in about 35 minutes. I had him on call to talk things through, (I just can't repeat it cause it's gonna hurt me so fucking much) and he said he is done with the tortures of life. I said I was on my way and I was running. We were talking for a bit, I thought things were turning okay... But... Right As I was arriving at the bridge to save him... HE FUCKIN JUMPED. I LOST MY FUCKING FRIEND, IVE LOST SO MANY AND I JUST LOST ANOTHER ONE. I couldn't fucking take it, and at one point, I was gonna join him. But then it hit me, I have you guys, you guys are my family. I love every single one of you. So I got back down, but I just, I had to drink away my pain. But Seriously, this community is the best thing that has happened to me, and you guys are the reason why I keep going. I hate the reAl world because it is too agginizingly painful and torturous. Toribash is my escape and all of you are the best people I've ever had in my life. After tho seeing my friend's death, it's put me in a bad mental state right now, and I need help, I need so much help from you guys. I will try to put on a smile every time I'm on toribash, but that smile isn't gonna be all real, it'll mostly be fake smiles for a while. I will still work on my mods and forever do that, but just saying, as a family, please, I need your help, more than anything in this world, please save me.