Alright first things first, activity always rises up, it never goes down at the beginning of it.
Second, your English is fine, all you have to do is work a teeny little bit on it more and you'll be okay.
Third, you're not so bad and just don't point out negatives that YOU see in yourself and people don't, you look just fine to me.
Fourth, being a fag is okay, it's only bad when you cross the limits (by that I mean bothering somebody else).
Fifth, you're willing to improve and we have people who can help you over here.
That's just it for me, don't be a dickhead, you got a yes from me.
Also I don't like socializing much either but when I have to I always make it worth it so don't spare it, it's fun, just go for it.