Originally Posted by
jisse
This really pisses me off.
Depression and suicide isn't exactly a subject to joke about.
I hope you think better of me in the future, I am not Tyzi.
chill, i have depression too but if i decide to be vulnerable that's just going to make things worse. i'm not even going to baby you on this.
i understand how you feel, to an extent. i haven't gone through what you've gone through but i've dealt with enough to be diagnosed with depression as well. my anxiety causes me to be all over the place which doesn't make it any better.
but the first step i took towards living life more happily is learning to laugh at myself and frickin' lighten up and after 6 fucking years of doubting myself in everything i do, teachers and friends ranting on about me not doing what they want, and sitting at the computer for hours on end talking to lifeless pricks through the internet, i got really sick of taking everything seriously
chill out, do something that can relax you, and seek therapy and please, do not pull the "therapy doesn't work" card because I'm sick of hearing it. i've had a therapist on and off for 5 years now and things only get rough when I don't go to see him regularly. you can't tell your friends your problems because 9/10 they're fucking assholes about it, there's nothing you can change about it and the same thing can go for your parents. my therapist listens, responds, and helps me get my life in order when i'm in a moment of despair because i can't do it on my own right now. i can accept that.
tl;dr
"get over yourself". and i mean that in the least rude way as i can make it. depression is so common nowadays and a large portion of society doesn't do much to make it better, let's not forget to mention that you're on the internet right now where assholes and dickheads dwell. it's up to
you to make yourself feel better, it's up to
you to accept the fact that you need help, and it's up to
you to reach out for it.
jisse, i don't know you personally and i haven't even hung out with you that much since i made RSO shit itself, but i can tell that you're talented and a good guy. i can't say that you're too young to have existential crises because i have a few of my own at times, but don't let them consume you. life is a super shitty game without mods and bug fixes. try new things and don't let your performance phase you. i, personally, think i'm fucking TERRIBLE at painting but i still try my best to have fun while doing it.
and yes, you're not tyzi. you're not a cunt.