Well , I think of suicide at least once a week .

My motive ? Well , in general bad life . I can't really seem to find much real-life friends . Most of the people I know in real life are just plain evil . I might be fooling myself , but I think I have one of the purest hearts on Earth :3
Also , lack of reasonable parents . I love them so much , but I really flip out when they are talking nonsense .


What did stop me ? My brain :3 You just need to think it out .





Also , "tell me a reason not to kill myself " - Well , you are a beautiful girl . You can get almost any guy you want . If you shared more of your life with us , maybe we could help you . It is always good to share your emotions .

That's the point.


But I am to fucking stupid to find a good one guy that will not only want to fuck with me.. and if I actually find one - he goes away because I tend to cheat him ._. I need a damn therapist. Alot of them.

If someone was actually reading what I was posting before, like, some weeks or even months ago, I had to do some shit with law. Almost went to jail. :|

What else. Alot of scars on my tiny sic heart. Yeah, I've got a sickness from my stupid father that loves me so much he left me ages ago. Awesome.

I am sorry , but I haven't read that .
How did it happen ?

Someone tried to blame on me something I did not do.

I have thought about suicide,never considered doing it myself but I think its a fucking stupid idea,don't do it bro.

Good one, Shao.

It's dumb to even consider it!
We're too young to even understand life,imagine all the things you could do,but you still haven't.For now just be social,meet people and everything will fall in its place.

Kinda hard to do while living on my own.

OKAY - got job, got place to live. Got some people to hand out with, get drunk with, sleep with (I mean after party when I am drunk I can just knock to their door and I will have place to sleep for night). But I want change. I want to change myself, tho I cant.

Why can't you?

What do you want to change yourself into ?