Originally Posted by
Butler
sorry i've been inactive girls are confusing
I've got to agree... I'm no longer in a relationship but my EX that broke up with me seems to still love me but is trying to push me away because we live too far away. She will get drunk and message me things like, "I love you. Baby I miss you so much
" and stuff like "I want you inside of me"
I have screens of convo if interested but yeah...
Basically I went to go see her for New Years Eve/New Years, she picked me up at the airport in New Orleans and we drove to the hotel and checked in. We drove around a little bit and found a place to eat nearby. Talked, etc and went back to the hotel and just started watching TV, talking, and cuddling and one thing led to another and we ended up fucking within me meeting her IRL for the first time within 2-3 hrs.
We just cuddled, napped, fucked, and watched TV while we waited for it to get closer to New Years, and then we went out downtown for fireworks, etc. She got a bit wasted, nearly pissed herself on the way back because everything was closed with a bathroom so she had to hold it and she was hungry so I fed her some leftover fish from a cup that I warmed up since we didn't have any plates. Fucked again and went to sleep.
Went to go visit and meet her family the next day, just hung out, she drove me around her neighborhood showing me past houses, telling me about her life basically. We fucked maybe about 8-9 times within the 3 days I was there. Then when she dropped me off at the airport it didn't really seem right, kinda like she was having doubts and said very weirdly/sadly while holding up her phone, "talk to you on this again i guess" and within the next day she basically broke up with me, drank herself to sleep the next 3-4 days straight. I decided to drive up there to see her again and talk about everything going on.
I did not tell her I was driving up there to see her however, but I had asked beforehand if she had work. Drove up there, she found out when I was about an hour away (was a 20 hr drive non-stop, did it in about 22-23 hrs) and when I got there she was a little upset but not. We went out to get groceries for her mom for dinner (which I wasn't planning on staying for) and she nearly went down on me in the car and parking lot of the store. We got the food and came back. I walked to her room and found she was taking off her pants, etc and basically waving me over... pushed me on the bed and we went from there and fucked another 2-3 times that day/night that I stayed. (didn't expect that tbh was just there to see why she wanted to break up and see if anything could be fixed) she was basically in tears when I tried asking though.
We've had phone sex a bit still, sometimes still fall asleep with each other on the phone, and occasionally wake up to morning calls where we just basically wake up with each other. I honestly love her to death and idk... she seems really confused because she wants to be with me but feels like it would hurt too much to be.