First of all that was a beautiful song, if only because i know that feeling, secondly shut yer yap and pick something, then do it. Feeling sorry for yourself isnt going to get shit done.
Retrospect and regrets are horrible things, take the advice of someone who has wasted a shit load of time doing fuck all with their life.
I did shit and i failed at shit, and now things are shit with the possibility of becoming not shit.